After watching a thai romance movie on SCV, I'm starting to feel so lonely and sad. Oh gosh! My first post after a long break, seems to be a sad one.
Dont give up Rozi, hang in there. If it's fated, you'll meet someone who will make u believe in love again. Otherwise, just enjoy life!!
Okay wait for my next post!!! Hope it's a happy one (",)
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Monday, March 15, 2010
Plans Plans Plans
It's great to have plans right. But sometimes I hate plans. Cos it restricts you. It doesn't proves to be of much fun. Weird right, for someone at my age to talk about fun and impromptu?
My old place.. my boss and peers sucks. My new place.. my boss is great. I hope it stays at that, that is, a little. I'm super busy at work but should be able to leave after 6pm.
I'm on a year contract which is due January 2011. Not sure if they'll renew me and not sure if I want it renewed. We'll see. So, for now, I've to save my miserable 14 days of leave. To survive with no leave or trip, I know I wont survive it well. To preempt, I got to cut myself some slack, that is pamper myself with a short break during weekend.
Why did I leave my previous job when it's tough with such a big pay cut? Well, away from their clutches, my health is much better. My mental health is much better too. I just need to manage my finances real well and TIGHT.
In the meantime, till Jan 2011, I will do well in my job (cos I'm paid for it) and take time to think what I really want in life.
I hope the people in my previous place get all the luck and blessings they deserved. May they be freed from the clutches of the DEMON, DEMON's WIFE and TYRANT.
Stay cool in the meantime. Looking forward to my escapade this weekend.
My old place.. my boss and peers sucks. My new place.. my boss is great. I hope it stays at that, that is, a little. I'm super busy at work but should be able to leave after 6pm.
I'm on a year contract which is due January 2011. Not sure if they'll renew me and not sure if I want it renewed. We'll see. So, for now, I've to save my miserable 14 days of leave. To survive with no leave or trip, I know I wont survive it well. To preempt, I got to cut myself some slack, that is pamper myself with a short break during weekend.
Why did I leave my previous job when it's tough with such a big pay cut? Well, away from their clutches, my health is much better. My mental health is much better too. I just need to manage my finances real well and TIGHT.
In the meantime, till Jan 2011, I will do well in my job (cos I'm paid for it) and take time to think what I really want in life.
I hope the people in my previous place get all the luck and blessings they deserved. May they be freed from the clutches of the DEMON, DEMON's WIFE and TYRANT.
Stay cool in the meantime. Looking forward to my escapade this weekend.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
L.O.V.E.
This is good news or bad? Suddenly longing to love and be loved again...
Willing to give 'men' a little trust, a chance to prove that there really are good men around us.
"Someone who knows what I am thinking of" without having to say it out. "Someone who does little things, the very little things in life that will make me smile".
Please don't buy me flowers. Save the money.. let's go for a retreat better. A place where there is vast greenery, flowers, big blue sky. Take off our shoe and just lie down enjoy the view and fresh air.
Oh gosh, I am dreaming again like a teenager. Ok ok, that's enough for now. Shouldn't dream too much when i am still wide awake...
heeee....heee...
Learn to love yourself before loving others. Muack.
Willing to give 'men' a little trust, a chance to prove that there really are good men around us.
"Someone who knows what I am thinking of" without having to say it out. "Someone who does little things, the very little things in life that will make me smile".
Please don't buy me flowers. Save the money.. let's go for a retreat better. A place where there is vast greenery, flowers, big blue sky. Take off our shoe and just lie down enjoy the view and fresh air.
Oh gosh, I am dreaming again like a teenager. Ok ok, that's enough for now. Shouldn't dream too much when i am still wide awake...
heeee....heee...
Learn to love yourself before loving others. Muack.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
First post in 2010
Time flies, this is my first post since 21 June 2009. Also my first post in 2010.
I have avoided penning down all my thoughts here. Why? Cos I dont want my life to be all about my workplace and the negativity surrounding me.
I took charge of my life, made the hardest decision ever. That is leaving the Board. A place I first started out my work life after poly. A total of 11 years and 5 months, dedicated all to the Board.
I hate the reason I left the Board. The people in my section forced me to leave. I'll die a slow death if I stayed on. Anyway, I have left on 19 Jan 2010.
Since the day I left, all the negative thoughts, negative people, negative aura, left me. Or should I say, I left them all behind. I am glad I made the move, despite the fact of facing the uncertainties in my new workplace and new future.
I thought I would cry badly on my last day but surprisingly, I didnt. Heart was heavy, tears welled up but I didnt cry badly. My mum and sis were surprised. My sis commented I've grown much stronger than before. Yeah, I guess I did. That's one good news right.
My health got for the worse. My cholesterol had shot up. I am making another effort to change my lifestyle. Hopefully my determination does not wear out.
Let's hope there'll be more positive and happy posts in the future.
Gambate!! JiaYou!! Fighting!!
I can do it!!
I have avoided penning down all my thoughts here. Why? Cos I dont want my life to be all about my workplace and the negativity surrounding me.
I took charge of my life, made the hardest decision ever. That is leaving the Board. A place I first started out my work life after poly. A total of 11 years and 5 months, dedicated all to the Board.
I hate the reason I left the Board. The people in my section forced me to leave. I'll die a slow death if I stayed on. Anyway, I have left on 19 Jan 2010.
Since the day I left, all the negative thoughts, negative people, negative aura, left me. Or should I say, I left them all behind. I am glad I made the move, despite the fact of facing the uncertainties in my new workplace and new future.
I thought I would cry badly on my last day but surprisingly, I didnt. Heart was heavy, tears welled up but I didnt cry badly. My mum and sis were surprised. My sis commented I've grown much stronger than before. Yeah, I guess I did. That's one good news right.
My health got for the worse. My cholesterol had shot up. I am making another effort to change my lifestyle. Hopefully my determination does not wear out.
Let's hope there'll be more positive and happy posts in the future.
Gambate!! JiaYou!! Fighting!!
I can do it!!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Dialogues from a show
What future can she have with you?
Yes, my annual salary doesn’t reach one million.
I don’t have an expensive car and nothing good to offer.
But we are attracted to each other and we just want to be together. Isn’t that allowed?
I don’t have an expensive car but I have a motorcycle.
When I am riding with you, I can feel the warmth of your arms around me.
An eight year difference, we can make it up together.
You can keep wearing mini skirts for me and for you I can keep wearing suits and ties.
We can watch the foreign movies you love so much together.
And we can read the mangas I love together.
As long as we are together, everything is ok.
If you are tired and don’t have a car, I can carry you back home.
If you are not in a good mood, I can accompany you to the roof top to watch the stars.
A love not based on money doesn’t have to lack romance.
Being together simply for the sake of love, isn’t that possible?
Are you willing to encourage me?
If yes, I’ll work hard for our future.
Because you are my dream.
Can I ask you a question?
For women your age, are conditions more important than feelings?
If being in love only needed conditions, wouldn’t that be sad?
Can conditions make you content? Or can conditions make you happy?
When you become close to a person, that increasing heartbeat and being shy, do you have those? I do.
Yes, my annual salary doesn’t reach one million.
I don’t have an expensive car and nothing good to offer.
But we are attracted to each other and we just want to be together. Isn’t that allowed?
I don’t have an expensive car but I have a motorcycle.
When I am riding with you, I can feel the warmth of your arms around me.
An eight year difference, we can make it up together.
You can keep wearing mini skirts for me and for you I can keep wearing suits and ties.
We can watch the foreign movies you love so much together.
And we can read the mangas I love together.
As long as we are together, everything is ok.
If you are tired and don’t have a car, I can carry you back home.
If you are not in a good mood, I can accompany you to the roof top to watch the stars.
A love not based on money doesn’t have to lack romance.
Being together simply for the sake of love, isn’t that possible?
Are you willing to encourage me?
If yes, I’ll work hard for our future.
Because you are my dream.
Can I ask you a question?
For women your age, are conditions more important than feelings?
If being in love only needed conditions, wouldn’t that be sad?
Can conditions make you content? Or can conditions make you happy?
When you become close to a person, that increasing heartbeat and being shy, do you have those? I do.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Thoughts
What is love? feelings? friendship? respect? family? kinship? what have you and a whole lot more. I used to think I know who they are. With time they seem to have left me one by one. I no longer know who they are.
Same happens to all the people around me. Slowly, bit by bit, they left me. What they left behind are distrust, disregard people's feelings, selfishness... etc. 'Ships' are also no longer important. Taking people for granted, with the mindset that even if they left for ages, disregard people's feelings, if they come back one day, we will still be there for them.
That's bullshit. The only thing that still have a place in my heart are my parents. They are the only people who truly care for you unconditionally. They are the ones who will be there for you even if you left without a word and come back after ages. They'll still treat you and love you the same.
Guess I no longer believe in people. All those who have been a part of my life, big or small, have etched this impression on me. When they need you they come to you. When they dont need you, you are left to rot, till they need you again.
When they are lonely, they seek your company. When they found someone who can keep them company, they ditched you, regardless of your feelings. Unless something big happen to you, then they would realise you still exist.
Why do some people wanna lie their way through life? If you like someone, go ahead, admit. If you dont, then say so. Why lie yet your actions proved otherwise. I hate such people. Drama.
What's left in this world? Career, $, house, lust, greed, dishonesty, unfaithfulness, lies, selfishness.
Yeah I am negative. Why? You made me so. Thank you.
Same happens to all the people around me. Slowly, bit by bit, they left me. What they left behind are distrust, disregard people's feelings, selfishness... etc. 'Ships' are also no longer important. Taking people for granted, with the mindset that even if they left for ages, disregard people's feelings, if they come back one day, we will still be there for them.
That's bullshit. The only thing that still have a place in my heart are my parents. They are the only people who truly care for you unconditionally. They are the ones who will be there for you even if you left without a word and come back after ages. They'll still treat you and love you the same.
Guess I no longer believe in people. All those who have been a part of my life, big or small, have etched this impression on me. When they need you they come to you. When they dont need you, you are left to rot, till they need you again.
When they are lonely, they seek your company. When they found someone who can keep them company, they ditched you, regardless of your feelings. Unless something big happen to you, then they would realise you still exist.
Why do some people wanna lie their way through life? If you like someone, go ahead, admit. If you dont, then say so. Why lie yet your actions proved otherwise. I hate such people. Drama.
What's left in this world? Career, $, house, lust, greed, dishonesty, unfaithfulness, lies, selfishness.
Yeah I am negative. Why? You made me so. Thank you.
Monday, May 18, 2009
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